She would have been 75 today. My life's inspiration and the person I miss most in this world, Grandma. I pray tonight, Jesus, that you would sing to her for me and give her a kiss on the cheek with an "I love you". What I wouldn't give to have another birthday to celebrate with her, but I know the celebration is far greater in Heaven.
Love, AJ
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Lost
I am feeling a little lost. Only a week after a great confrence where God filled me I am struggling with ministry and my place in it. I know God uses each of us where we are but I am I being used or am I just doing my own thing? I want to do God's will. I desire for Him to work through me. But am I letting Him? I sure hope and pray I am.
Tonight I spent a lot of time thinking on, praying about, and writing the devos for tomorows youth group Bible study. While I spent this time thinking and praying and hoping to get through to these girls I couldn't help but feel helpless. Helpless. Lost. Confused.
I know God has a plan. He has a plan for me at CrossRoads. He has a plan for the girls I spend time with studying the Bible. But, as usual, I can not see any of it. Not that I need to know what God is doing or what He has planned - I trust Him. My problem is I don't know if the girls who I care about what any of it. I want the to know God. I want them to feel loved by God and me. Am I loving them enough?
This week I am going to share with them Colossians 3:2, "Set your minds on wht is above, not on what is of the Earth." and Matthew 18:20, "For where two or three are gathered in My name, I am there among them."
I pray God uses His word to get through to these girls. I pray He uses me, and gives me the words to speak to each individual girl in that room tomorrow.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Untitled
"I am not skiled to understand what God has willed, what God has planned. I only know that at His right hand stands one who is my savior" (Song: My Savior My God)
These simple, yet powerful words took on a new meaning for me tonigt. As I watched my little sisters (in Christ Jesus) dance for the Lord, God opened the eyes of my heart. What power He has to use every skill we posses; after all He blessed us with whatever it is we share with the world ( or don't share).
All this brought me to wonder on a few things. The first being my New Years dedication to God to be thankful and content with each day, which I am holding true to (and am a happier person for). However, God, being the big God He is spoke to my heart not only through the dance of my sisters tonight but also through the words of a great friend and mentor who advised me to "take it all in," so to speak, and stop trying to figure God out along the way. His words of wisdom were much needed. As long as I am prayerful about all I do it does not matter if I know why God led me down this road or that road, it is my job and desire to follow my Lord anywhere and everywhere He leads me.
And so I want to engourage all my friends as a friend encouraged me. Follow the Lord, don't question or try to understand why. Whole heartedly follow Him and just watch what He unfolds. It may not be for 5, 10, 50 years, or ever we understand why God does what He does. His plan is too great, big, and powerful for me to understand and I love it that way!
My simple thanks to God today is for dance, music, and great friends who He gives us for encouragment just when we need it!
These simple, yet powerful words took on a new meaning for me tonigt. As I watched my little sisters (in Christ Jesus) dance for the Lord, God opened the eyes of my heart. What power He has to use every skill we posses; after all He blessed us with whatever it is we share with the world ( or don't share).
All this brought me to wonder on a few things. The first being my New Years dedication to God to be thankful and content with each day, which I am holding true to (and am a happier person for). However, God, being the big God He is spoke to my heart not only through the dance of my sisters tonight but also through the words of a great friend and mentor who advised me to "take it all in," so to speak, and stop trying to figure God out along the way. His words of wisdom were much needed. As long as I am prayerful about all I do it does not matter if I know why God led me down this road or that road, it is my job and desire to follow my Lord anywhere and everywhere He leads me.
And so I want to engourage all my friends as a friend encouraged me. Follow the Lord, don't question or try to understand why. Whole heartedly follow Him and just watch what He unfolds. It may not be for 5, 10, 50 years, or ever we understand why God does what He does. His plan is too great, big, and powerful for me to understand and I love it that way!
My simple thanks to God today is for dance, music, and great friends who He gives us for encouragment just when we need it!
Monday, January 3, 2011
Happy New Year
A Happy New Year indeed. I can't complain...though we are only 3 days in. And I am working on not complaining the rest of the year. My resolution to myself...though Im not sure how I feel about resolutions in general, but that's another story...is to be content with what I have. I want count my blessings, be more aware of God presence in my life. After all, it is a waste of time to sit arounf wish for thing you want or can't have. Their is more to life, God has a bigger plan and I want to experience all of His greatness.
I pray you, all my friends and family, experience a year of many blessings and feel God's love more than the year past.
Also, an update on my Papa. HE is doing very well, the tumor they took from his mouth was not cancerous. We are so thankful! God has provided and shown His love for us once again. This was truely a test of my faith but I never doubted God's will would be done. Thanks so very much for all your prayers and love for my dad and out family. It truely means more than you know.
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